There was a boy...
a very strange and enchanted boy.
They said he wandered very far, very far.
over land and sea,
a little shy and sad of eye,
but very wise was he.
And then one day, a magic day,
he passed my way.
And while he spoke of many things,
fools and kings,
this he said to me,
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return."

that was really random, i just read the moulin rouge picture book.
such a beautiful story, the forbidden love, the scheming and betrayal, the pain and torture.
but albeit all these, the show must go on.


''why does my heart cry, feelings i can't fight,
You're free to leave me, but just don't deceive me.

YAY my laptop's being a dear today. love.
SHIT i have to compile two weeks wroth of geog tutorial.
YAY avril's heyhey youyou is on radio.
SHIT i dont get math.
YAY im happy today.
SHIT i hate it when people shove and push just to get on the bus when there's bloody so many other people trying to get out.
YAY we're ready to squash raffles.
SHIT my back hurts.
YAY i studied a bit today.
SHIT a hell lot of research to do for PW.
YAY mkc tmr. song and dance!!
SHIT my back really hurts.
YAY for man u fans, they won everton?
SHIT my back f**king hurts.


''hanya kau cinta ku.

hey you guys. nobody scored full for my friends test.
haha but i admit some answers were totally stupid you had to guess to know.
chan: you damn cute. at least you know my current fav colour. cause of the bags.
jastine: first guy i liked alot. not most recent. even so, that would be the wrong answer :D
tianyu: you suck la. so low. haha but most of the things you wouldnt know. i forgive you. :)) no not aston. the uncle at video shop has more candy. cheap and good!
simhyi: lucky shit. you wouldnt have known half the stuff.
cruz: you so horrible. purple's a much nicer ranger colour.
dii and vera: the stupidest things not dennis. dennis who? cant remember. deleted from memory. so there.
everyone else: like everyone guessed the question on what i would do if i was really angry wrong. i'd pull down your pants. HAHAHAHAA really!

before all these, we lost to hwachong. i admit to this defeat cause we brought it among ourselves by not hitting. reminded me greatly about c div 04. and i really think some coaches have no sportsmanship. spitting at vjc is just about the last straw. you just wait and watch. it is far from over. but i applaud vj defence. lets stay united and play as a team. vera run faster and stop ball at all cost. when the time comes to redeem past mistakes, take it and run with it. NO REGRETS. it is never over.

after all these, many happy things happen. jiaying almost won a hula hoop contest, no thanks to bitchy girl. we played at the beach and had a great talk. a great load was lifted off my chest. i needn't need to worry so much anymore. :)) happy days ahead i hope.

we go into the next games stronger and ready to fight. rather we hit and force them to commit errors then just strike out. ''remember our pitching machine!" go vjc.

i screwed up my math test. two and a half upon twenty. i rock man. at least i didnt get half a mark.


''in a moment like this.

all go take my test!

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/261033

stupid scoreboard wont appear here. but go see anyway.

http://www.truefriendtest.com/scoreboard/261033

PARK DONT BE SILLY. everyone has gay tendencies! haha


''let the rain come down

i created a test. gay test!


''let the rain come down

IQ ball calls me a smurf.
gavin agrees.
but i say: smurfs are cute lar. have you heard they're goodnight song? rocks my socks man.

past few trainings have been gooood.
even though jiaolian and coach always hounding my throw, im still grateful for them.
like, after all the things they put us through, we emerge stronger and better.
now i know they're so hard on us cause they have high standards, so they expect more from us since they're our coaches.
i get it now.
we're the ones who will perform ultimately, and all our trainings are for that one moment of glory when we perform that great play. and we remember it for the rest of our lives.
tmr 4pm, vjc field. VJ vs hc.
watch out hwachong.
i realise that im easily confused. really.
hakim LOVES to exploit that quality of me and try to con me silly.
not funny lorh. i really thought you were posted to another school, even though i saw you at 02 the very next day, i thought you had to serve out our ogl duty before going to your new school :((


''rock my world you know you did.

musicfest rockess my sockess.
like WOW. culture shock. the quality was actually there!
vraa chan and i sneaked in. thankyou jinghan :))

QUICKNOTES:

1. i fell in love with the genrong dude who sang some korean song and played piano. turns out ive watched him perform at cat high before, frontman of vera's cousin's band thing two years ago. cool huh.

2. pao can really reach high notes. but she went off turn abit and couldnt hold the note.

3. mtvs were really good. hockey guys damn zai. can control ball until like that. whoots. i voted for them. and altho the house comm video was good too, it was so mass produced. and the last video was totally random. this convicted me that next year we should do the spice girls[PROJECT SPICE] vid. wait we win sia. hahaha

4. vocal duet sang my 'favourite song'!! buleh vukuh seh a veh mua sashua? haha go figure. diane dont spit green tea out when you see this. vera too. :D

5. stupid sly sc made everyone leave pt during break. dammit they almost make me and chan cry cause we almost couldnt get in. thank God for slipperdan who got us tickets. you rockess when youre not being an irritant man. haha! and i wanna complain. they totally just close two eyes and let the whole soccer team go right in aithout checking anything lah. biased pigs.

6. im officially james' groupie! omg his leather pants are downright hott. and to think he's usually so quiet but when drumming he looks possessed. which rocked shit. omg im your new fan!! CAMELS whoot.

7. birthday treat with lina bestie and benben. everything when i get pictures!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i love your shocked face when the ice cream and candle came out. thankyou great people at parkway fish and co who totally rocked and helped us prepare everything. yay!


''i am not afraid to walk this world alone.

im gonna have grey and white posts from now on.

softball guys zai larh. win hwachong 11-6.
first inning must give heart attack by trailing 5-1.
then yh's single became grandslam to tie the score.
poor CF dude must feel so shit.
then after that all whack to widen the score.
on fire sia.
but afterthat we had no chance to play cause it rained cats and dogs and rats and hampsters.
ohwell, more time to recover and prepare i guess.

so proud of myself: i didnt sleep in school today. was hyper throughout all lessons! whoot.
okay im mother tired.
wts. what kind of stupid song is 'i wanna have your baby' by natasha beddingfield.
what is the world coming to man.
whats more with haiwei compaigning to make f**k a good word by saying f**k=love. wts!

[picture post coming: sentosa and random stuff]


''tell me, am i doing the right thing?

1. i absolutely detest crowds. becasue they make my giddy and puke-ish. like, everyone's squeezing you from all directions and happily touch you from head to toe, using mass as an excuse. i think its equivalent to being raped in the open.

2. i love sappy romantic comedies. they make me go aww and feel like crying.

3. i get scared easily. like, i hate gory/horror movies. even house of wax made me cry.

4. im a clean freak. i cant stand dust bunnies, they make me shiver.

5. i love kids. but im scared of giving birth. i told belle once i wanted to have five next time. she called me a sow. hey, help the birth rate yo.

6. i used to swear as much as haiwei. but stopped after someone showed me how horribly bad it is. thus i dislike the use of swearwords and only approve of it in certain extreme situations. other then that, i dont think it helps much.

okayy. thats six.
i want diane and lina and laureen and jastine and angeline and joanna to tell me all of theirs.


''give me your heart, make it real or lets forget abut it.

it sucks being sick. really.

FRIDAY
three of us sexy ladies went to sentosa! total ownage. like i havent been there in years. how nice and artificial it is now. but doesnt matter, we went tanning so all we needed was the sun anyway. well, more them than i cause im currently already quite dark so my aim was to even out the tan and get rid of socklines and whatnot. cafe del moar is totally hip and beautiful with the blue and white tanning beds. I WANT. but no money. ohwells one day. ONE DAY MAN. then was bathing and coffee beaning and kopitiaming. which equally rocked. WE"LL BE BACK.

good friday service was well, okay and normal. didnt manage too bring any friends, but that night i think God opened up a new 'target' for me, and i will work on these two of my dear friends so next time we can live happily together gather in the kingdon of the Lord. whee.

SATURDAY
training early morning at eight. stumbled myself out of bed and got to school like half hour early cause stupid trains and buses decided to go real fast today. so being the mugger i am, i went to get my chinese textbook and read like 3/4 of the very first passage i learnt, which was by far the shortest. i read damn slow. and then the sun rose so greater heights and, to borrow a term form vera, steamed us all alive cause it was hot and wet. i was totally sweating in my armour and making it smelly and gross. ran my heart out during fielding and screwed up batting again. my timings weird man. no worries, it will all come back. peterwee made us go sit in the wading pool with ice water, which marked the start of my stupid flu. cause i was hot and really cold at the same time. and it was made even worse when after my bath, it poured. like, cats and dogs and trees were falling from the sky. rah, and once again, i had the chills.

in the end, was late for rehearsal but na and ant were even later. har. so i made her buy me bubble tea. yay and we sang and danced till i felt quite sick, literally. wheezing and coughing my way through as we led mkc to imaginary kids. spent the rest of the time playing with gilda and adia, eating grapes[thanks yanling and philip], and having ultimate suanning session of auntie ruth[ haha you know i love you :))]

cell outing at vivo was quite cool. ate at kopitiam, again. us no money people cant afford other stuff. talked and played games and crapped at some place above ben&jerry's and our two cell leaders laureena and minnie treated us to b&j's merlion thing. yummy. i think that time i was too high and nuts and sapped so much of my energy i became so tired on the train back. and as usual, train masters walked pass and looked suspiciously at the bat i carried. oh wow im gonna trash the train with and 200 bucks bat that doesnt even belong to me. -.-

SUNDAY
woke up feeling like crap. felt so hangoverish. maybe cause i was too darn high on ice cream last night. trudged my way through worship and sermon, falling asleep many many times. thankyou joyce for clarinase, it helped some. but the energy spent on mkc was worth it. laur and i impromptu-ed the palm sunday skit for our station. haha i was the donkey/house/crowd. all these while being headachey and flu-ey. gosh the energy i get from doing mkc and playing with kids is just tremendous. led a medley of 5 praise songs with bestie. and well, i guess our debut as wroship leaders was quite welcomed. and im glad at that. thankyou you guys for going along anf getting high on Jesus with us :) after the craziness the horrible feelings came back again and i felt so much like crap. seriously. it sucks. but above all this, im really proud of all the kids. like i see a vast difference when you compare them when they just came in and now, im so so happy that i played a part in changing a child's life. for that i only have to thank one Person that enabled me with suck abilities to interact and just have fun with the children. right now i dont see them as community kids but as one of the children population of zlscc that eventually we can nurture and raise them up as Godly men and women. press on mkc workers for what we're doing is a great thing and im sure God's smiling down on us from above. <333

everyone, please pray i get well. really need to.


''i wanna raise my hands.

some people just come up with the weirdest of codenames. haha fellow mountain dewers.

christian fellowship in school yesterday morning was good. what yaopeng siad totally hit the nail. cause ive been pondering on quite a few things, whether to do them or to wait, but what he shared really encouraged me and prompted me to do something quick. combined with what laur shared last cell, i'll pluck up my courage to do them! i dont wanna regret anything after its too late. so, dont worry about what you dont have if you do have faith.

yum i ate mango and rice and duck for dinner. reminds me of thailand/chiangmai and stupid zhutianyu.
mango and sticky rice. argh i want more! and green mango which turned out to be crunchy and yummy. tianyu the mango queen. go grow them LAH.

YAY we owned the field today. like, we could use any part of it and not only the edge and corner corner places. [take that iqbal, it wasnt raining] FINALLY! i guess it was quite good as we did quite a bit of infield drills today and it rocked man. lets go vjc!! whoo im so hyperr. i shall not say much for fear of SPIES. 0.o

yay i got candy today. thankyou aston. everyone said they candy was nice! you really should have tried. :))

well i guess sometimes we have to take things easy and not think too much into stuff cause ultimately it may not be what you thought it was, but its actually something else. but due to your over active mind you make it seem like what you want it to be. so i shall leave everything at the foot of the cross and enjoy life and take things as it comes my way.

please let there be no training on friday. its the lina-angeline-joanne outing day. we three sexy ladies gonna strut our stuff at sentosa. turn up the heat yo. ah hahaha.


''i want candy!

Faith is not demanding what we want; it is trusting God's goodness in spite of life's tragedies.

I question not God's means or ways,
Or how He uses time or days,
To answer every call or prayer -
I know he will,. somehow, somewhere - Whitney

I have faith in my God that he knows what He's doing.
And i know what He's gonna do is the bestest of the best!
pastor ho talked about where to draw the line (in terms of intimacy) in a relationship today.
machiam sex ed lesson.
kinda the same stuff his wife taught me in school larh.
but it was a good reminder not to compromise my own values for anything and leave my best for my husband on our wedding night.
my virginity is important to me and its the best wedding gift i can give my future husband.
thus from 1 to 11, i choose to stop at 7 :))

mkc quite rocked today.
cause i played for worship with angeline!
haha the kids did respond quite loudly and it reminded me that i AM making a difference in each of their loves by being there, thus, i will continue pressing on to befriend them in Christ and love them as Christ loves us.

im so sad little jana cant remember my name! :( must be cause i havent been playing with her. sho sad!

sorry lina bestie we cant do the whole dress-nice-nice-to-watch-phantom-at-esplanade thing for your birthday :( but we will hang out at sentosa on friday! and play in the sun and strut our sexy stuff! LOL. i love you so much for understanding! but most of all, I LOVE MY BESTIE!

sorry yaopeng, cant make it for your church's easter. heh im packed full.


''I see all that You've given to me
i just gotta praise
hey! hey!
I sing cause Jesus is living in me and I'm so amazed.

Your love gave me a way to freedom and i walk in the light.
hey! hey!
You're all, all that my heart is seeking
cause you're great in my life

This is the day
my God has made
i got a reason to celebrate
to jump up and down
to spin all around
to shout it 'hey!'
this is the day.''