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anyway, how great is mrs thong? she just gave us a free period. like no one can find her in the whole school so now everyone's scattered around in the com labs or libraries or just sitting and talking trash. its quite good actually. lit people hardly get free periods like these. this justifies why taking geog so rocks.

this weeks such a surprising week. its the first time ive went home so early for so many days. im so boring. sigh.

anyway. someone's really getting on my nerves. im mean i believe guys and girls are equals, okay maybe not in strength but in skill im sure girls can be equally good. apparently someone doesnt agree and insists that its a different league altogether. but really underneath it all its all the same innit? its just that guys have that blessing of natural power that we girls lack and have to build up seperately. so there. shut up and go away.

i doubt anyone even reads this so i dont really care what i write here. if people really do read this good for them and bad for me. what the heck. i shall rant on and on about him. its seriously not the right time right now for this kinda stuff but then again, if not now, when? after 'o's there's 'a's and after that theres even more things. so i guess if i can handle it, why not. but then there's the parents of course. the obstacle that's forever there. even with befores i had to lie my way through and it don feel to great. and this time it'll be harder cause of various connections and one small slip with throw not only the family but also the church into chaos. i state as evidence the last episode between dicky and eli. its all over now but im sure its been ingrained into the minds of the adults in the church. and there's alwasy that im too young reasons and shit. but hey, its all for the sake of our dear birth rate. therefore, gotta start early. hey i listen in lessons okayy. especially geog.

but whatever happen happens
only time will tell. and i hope it'll work.
cause seriously, i need some drama in my life. lol

ahh. so we played maris b boys today.
haha we kinda lost but ohwell many ppl were quite off today. heh. yeah so we did our usual warmups and everything thing and i think ouxiang catcher was quite unhappy about her catching today. but i admire her for hiding her feelings during games and just be 'happy' so as not to affect the team. gotta learn. anyway, i startedd as right field. quite blur there so i made mistakes. didnt know where to stand to one ball i stood too far and i caouldnt reach it in time then i totally forgot about the runner on three. argh .knock head. the other i stood too close and the guy hit past me near the line. and that disgusting place is so muddy and disgusting. like i couldnt move. but that's no excuse for my sorry play in outfield. but later i caught in the third and forth inning. quite happy with that. throw two not fast enough against boys but im just happy i got my flick on my throwing back. it was missing the last training. oh and there was this guy you looked like someone we dont really liked, and he fell for the rubbish ball thing and hit a lousy grounder to mag who got him out. whoopee! and i made a nice hit. haha i went up, shouted and that stupid catcher was like hurry up la. hello? i was ready and you were not. but i made a nice hit right to centre field. whoopie. that shup them up. the other hit wasnt that good. wasnt steady. but sixth inning zesa low pitch. bounced on plate or sth and my hand went into the glove too early and my thumb got pushed back. again. the last time was from her too. sigh. but i think i still can train. just cant throw properly. i refuse to stop. need my form back.

haha we could hear the national day rehearsals going on at the nat stadium. cool.

i need stuff:
-new glove [mine got hole]
-fbt shorts
-new sportsbras. mine are in a sorry state.
-abs. hahah. right

church camps overr.
ahhaha i was just complaining to sebas how boring the first night was and how pathetic the guys there were. oops did i just say that out loud? heh but seriously, i shall not name names but some people need to liven up and some need to know soccer aint no one man show. pass the freaking ball boy!
but the rest of the camp was good. loved the worship.
oh and jacko was so obsessed with this lydia girl. i dont even know why but anyway we were singing songs and her lyrics to all songs we sang was like lydia lydia lydia.. seriously. and nini professed his love for jacko again. poor lil boy. should ask that what's his name crespo wearing tee guy to teach him. ah daniel. sec two and so tall already.
and im so proud of myself. i actually studied today! one and a haalf chapters of physics.
and kester's being irritating again. he's my new girlfriend. he turned gay over the weekend watching the spain match and was proclaiming how shuai torres was/is. well that's my line okay. and too bad the poor boy's having tuition now. so wahaha. maybe i shall call him tonight to gloat in his face. evil me. and people still believe we actually are siblings. so what is he? kester gay? and i joanne sim? lol. ohwell.
im like aching all over and i dont even know why. i havent training for a while so it must be sitting cramped inthe car on the way to and fro from kl and getting pins and needles in my butt. yeesh.
and the countdown begins. 5 days to the first day of school. gosh i so dont wanna face syahidah. sorry but everyday she tells me how many more days to prelims and 'o's . like shut up already. im so behind time. rushing to catch up. but i guess that's the was we softballers are. too used to working under short deadlines that when we have a whole lot of time in our hands we just waste it away.
then theres those days where you feel you're the only one in this whole wide world that's feeling so down and everyone else is to happy and hyper. it aint fair that you're so sad but you just are and you dont know what's bothering you and there's nothing that will lift your spirits and everythings going the wrong direction, and then you wish someone out there would just come and be that shining star that you so desperately need to cling on but when that person doesnt come you just push it away to the back of your head until one day all these pushed back stuff just come tumbling out like mt merapi erupting.
maybe you dont feel this way and maybe its just me but i quote: 'where'd you go? i miss you so'
only thing is, i dont even know who im looking for.
but i trust God that He's my Jehovah Jirah. my provider :D

i have commenced studying yesterday.
actually its more like rushing to finish up homework so i can actually start my studying.
blah.
i feel so weak. like havent done weights in a long long time and that might account for my weak performances at games. shucks. so playing for combined schools hardly caught. mostly played outfield but yeaterday ms peh put me at shortstop cause dear queen was sick. so like i was so blur there and yan couldnt do much plays cause i covered too slow and didnt really know where to go. but wasnt that bad since we only let in like two runs in the two innings we played. there were nice plays though. hopbox between home and 3rd, which im damn happy that i didnt screw up, and one where i fielded the ball, almost overthrow to mag but she caught it and since the runner was still running, mag threw to two and warita got her out!! nicee.

but the day before we lost by one run to the old people. okayy they're not that old. and all ex national players so ohwell. at least i didnt strike out. phew! and at least coach jo wasnt playing for them cause she's in china!! but coach jenny was there and youth training was tiring in the morning so she might have an ulterior motive there. 0.o ahaha what nonsense. and speaking of youth squad they're gonna cut people liao. for the hajai[?] trip. which is in august so i have no idea how im gonna tell the parents. i just hope and pray it doesnt clash with any exams.

jamx on friday was great too. went far east with na and ant. and crapped and ate and bought film and ate dessert and laughed at j2 guys having their hair cut in preparation for army or whatever and taking pics with tiffy's fisheye. wheee. then at jamx we went crazy during worship and stuff. havent had so much fun in a long time and bands were good. so yeah.

annd. 4 days to church camp! cant wait.

im procrastinating again. dang! im never gonna finish my work if i continue doing it.

ohwell today's viv's birthday happy birthday to you! and we watcher she's the man. amanda bynes so rock. haha say brenda and jon. they look good. yeah i'll say that. maybe she's changed. or maybe not. i just remembered she hit my head. so yup. no change, its just jon's taste :D

gdop 06 so rockssss my socksss.cant wait for the next one next year. the whold stadium will be filled next time. have faith!

lina's granny just passed away. can safely say she aint affected by it cause one morning she just told me oh yeah, my grandma just died. so at least we know she's[grandma] free of all her pain and happily in heaven now.