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my friend has an exciting life two guys after her
so exciting but the timing's abut funny
my player's gone kuku the cd's not playing properly
i need a new one but anyway
that's the wrong topic my best friend recently
had something nice done to her this guy took her to
changi beach and confessed his love for her
again did so by writing a message on the sand
the handwriting was awful i saw the picture
but nevertheless it was romantic
ROMANTIC when was the last time
someone did something related to that word for me?
i cant remember how long ago it was
the first or the second i liked the first better
the second doesnt even count
the first talked to me held me
played with me laughed with me
though he feels like a stranger now i remember the times
i want to relieve the times but i think i hurt him
its a miracle we're stilll friends but sometimes i wish
i really wish we were more than friends
but what are the chances of that happening
maybe he feels insulted i even went with second
that was a huge mistake a huge mistake
that big fake i hate you
but i missed the first alot alot alot
what to do? oh yeah
this was supposed to be about best friend
is okay to digress abit back to you
best friend's in a dilemah (?) the C one or the M one
the C one's so sweet but i'll be bored to death
sorry C one but that's how i feel but ignore me, i dont matter
the M one seems more interesting but he's abit out of reach huh
if it was me i dont choose
i wait for more even though i'd probably die waiting
i will wait cause i believe
God will send the right one straight to me
and it will be like (quote howard) A fairytale
lucky ah ma ruth [so romantic he is]
back to here earth to me
stuck in dreamland diane will probably read this and pester me to no end
so will vera tiffy will go huh
and i will go hahaha maybe one day i will tell you
but now i see hope mr P is gonna help
activate his team of experts he says you're the best
you so rock love you man
love first more

craig david - ''you wont miss the water ('til the well runs dry)''

so true

i saw someone after i studied yesterday
he was with a little girl looks like his lil sister
although i think they aren't even related the pencil was too fat
but anyway, back to the story we were walking
he with the girl i with my friends
we all went into the skytrain that's when i really noticed him
baggy pants, nice shirt i liked the grey jacket most
looked up at his eyes
nice smoky eyes and i couldnt help but realise
he was staring at me too well duh
if not how would i have seen those eyes pretending to look around
but in actual fact looking at him secretly
sometimes finding him looking at me too its a nice feeling
to know youve attracted his attention but the ride was short
he and the girl walked out first duh.they were nearer the door
when we got out lost sight of him in the crowd
only to finally see him walking away taking a different route from me
wont see him again methinks trying to glimpse at him once more
my friends notice him too and we discussed what he wore
then we walked pass BK hoping to find someone we knew
but none were found alas, God is gracious
as we turned to the escalator down the friend said
hey!that's the brother and sister i was like
where where looking everywhere but in front of me
when i finally see him he stepped onto the escalator
and turned around looking at him again
i finally realised what attracted me to him he looked like the first
so alike i thought i was seeing the first oops better look away
wont want to let him catch me staring but i think he already did
ohwell i caught him too hahax (inside joke)
but after that after he left the train on the left
and we on the right i could not see him anymore
the friend said its a small world i will see him again, he says
thanks friend i sit here
its raining outside and i cant forget that hot smokin eyes
i cant forget him friend says i will see him
but i have doubts where's the gayness gone
why is it that i find myself lonely

ah poor me. im caught the chills.. at least i should be happy i dont' have dengue[dee stop laughing] i hate this. there's this bitter taste in my mouth the whole day and its disgusting. i wanna get well faster. dont like this at all. but maybe its good. i haven't had enough sleep lately. so now i can rest. let me recharge abit..

guess what my finals are in15 days time and i've only just begun studying. but i think if i study now when im sick i wont be able to get anything in la.. but i will try to read the chinese storybook thing. i want to pass chinese!! anyone can help me? i so suck at that.

ohwell. i shall go sleep soon. getting quite tired alr. and its only like 4 in the afternoon! hahas. all those ppl pray for me so i can get well!!

btw: soccer match
zion living streams community church
vs
true jesus church
come down and support zioners. and we're gonna need cheerleaders!

z-l-s-c-c you're so fine you blow my mind hey zion, hey hey, hey zion.yeah!

eh, why no one told me queen was on tv?!? i wanna watch la.. ooh. and the channel u korean dramas rock.
but some actors look so deformed tho..lol

seriously.. i have no idea why i like soe people. those who know me have no idea why i used to like samuel oh. i have no idea either actually. but the keyword here is used to.. thing is sometimes i have no idea what im doing. whether im doing things cause im impulsive or just cause i feel like doing it. i never really know if its really what i want to do. im not really making sense but ohwell.

you know sometimes when you walk on the streets, you see ouples and wonder how many of them will really last? as in, these days, people just get married and divorce as and when they like. how many people actually really treasure their relationship? i thin i walk around like a freaking zombie. what am i even doing here? i ask myself.

i had a long loong looong talk with dii just the other day. we talked about everything and anything under the sun. talked till the sun set. it was good. really. i wanna do it again. the studying part was crap la.. but i had fun. [your brother's really dark]] heh. i realised many things that day. i realised that i deserved better. i realised what i was doing. i realised i was valued. even though sometimes i feel neglected. i feel pushed aside. [is that the same thing?] i know there's some one there for me. even though i have to share.

what am i saying?

i love jay chou
i love initial d [thanks queen. you rock]

hahas. that aside, coach gave us a really long talk yesterday. how much went into our heads i dunno. but i still respect her. how many people you know survived cancer? i love her mentality sometimes. positive. ohman .i realy dunno what im saying. jiao lian talked too. belle, i said she's right but not about the stupid part. you misunderstood dear.

i so feel like slipping back into my state of self pity. i know God's there. but i still want a hug.