THIS IS BAD
like, everything kinda went wrong today.
apart from school, which i actually managed to stay awake most of the time, the rest of the day quite sucked.
especially training. i dont know what im doing wrong. i dont know how to change it. jiaolian may tell me, but i just cant seem to get it somehow. i think i wasnt very focused the whole time and was kinda dying from cough and stuff. but i guess it is my fault for not putting in extra effort to maintain my skills as well. just like what dcruz said: champions must put in extra effort to stay champions cause others always want to beat champions. very true. it must be quite a bad time for this to happen cause season starts in a month and i feel so worn out at times. BUT. i know when the time comes, we will be ready. and for us to be ready i must do my part and put in the effort to get better. face the ball, footwork, extension, sending out, thinking quick. and every other thing that must be done. i dont care what shit jiaolian gave me about thinking too highly of me, about how im so lousy. i know i will make it through somehow. i know i will. i just have to go back to basics.
im falling. deeper and deeper. and its getting harder to get out of it. its affecting me. alot. and i dont want it to cause now's a bad time. season's coming and im still trying to keep up in school. im not as smart as everyone thinks i am. i dont have 48 hours a day as some people think. i cant cope like that. but on the other hand, i miss it. it makes me want it bad. this is so confusing.
i miss you.
''i am falling to my knees, i need you Lord to breathe in me.
hmmamm.10:23 pm
SHEEPIE
Joanne Gay
Victoria Junior College
play around with the sheep on top :)