its been quite a fun and interesting trip. like i got to know other softballers from other places. even though we like lost every competitive game, its alright cause we were in the international category so we faced tougher teams. i guess we didnt really play that well either but its all over. no use brooding over it now.
the only thing im happy about is the shopping at the bazaar and my beautiful homerun. whee. down the leftfield line! like finally. after a drought for like 9 months yo. feels like finding a watering hole in the desert. ahh.
it was superly irritating that when i was there my throw like totally went berserk. like i forgot how to throw and as if i was sec one all over again. fing irritating shit. i hate it when that happens. cause i lose confidence in my skills. like i dont feel it yo. it brings me down to feel that even after training for quite long i cant throw properly. rah.
what do i want? coach jenny asked us this question. and even after thinking for so long im still hesitant about my choice. personally i want to continue softball. to be frank, ive fell in love with the game. but im very disadvantaged due to my small frame and to play in higher levels, being small is unacceptable. like people bang me, i'll fly. i bang people, i still fly. get the picture?
so i think i'll take it one by one. i continue where i can. if i cant, i cant. but at least i try. that's all i can and will do. but i do hope i can go further. cause it'll be a waste to stop after sacrifising so much of my life. like its been hard. and it will continue being hard cause the workload will only increase. but i want to try it. i now many friends think im nuts for training so much. like i dont really have a life. that much i know very well. maybe it will change, maybe it wont. i'll just leave it to my Creator to work that out for me.