in the midst of o's it is a bad time to think about anything other than work. but after studying, late at night, when you let your mind drift. its hard to control where it drifts to.

but o's are going on fine. just sometimes i feel so drained. and tired. like i feel i cant continue. then God picks me up again. or sends someone to do that. but sometimes He doesnt. maybe its His way of telling me to be stronger and overcome it by myself. sure it'll be great it someone was there to encourage me along the way, but things happen for a reason i guess. ah what nonsense am i sprouting.

its time to let go i guess. however hard. very hard. but i just have to do it. im still pissed about the whole damn thing. you just dont lead someone on like that. or maybe i read too much into things. rahrahrah. whatever it is, i will let go. if it is truely meant to be, it will happen, otherwise, forget it. just forget it.

but what if i cant?


Jesus, beautiful Savior,
God of all majesty
risen King

lamb of God,
holy and righteous
Blessed redeemer
bright morning star.

All the heavens
shout your praise
All creation bows
to worship you

How wonderful
how beautiful
name above every name
exalted high
how wonderful
how beautiful
Jesus your name
name above every name
Jesus.


beautiful song. its my themesong for the exams. its what has kepy me going, knowing God is there :)