church camps overr.
ahhaha i was just complaining to sebas how boring the first night was and how pathetic the guys there were. oops did i just say that out loud? heh but seriously, i shall not name names but some people need to liven up and some need to know soccer aint no one man show. pass the freaking ball boy!
but the rest of the camp was good. loved the worship.
oh and jacko was so obsessed with this lydia girl. i dont even know why but anyway we were singing songs and her lyrics to all songs we sang was like lydia lydia lydia.. seriously. and nini professed his love for jacko again. poor lil boy. should ask that what's his name crespo wearing tee guy to teach him. ah daniel. sec two and so tall already.
and im so proud of myself. i actually studied today! one and a haalf chapters of physics.
and kester's being irritating again. he's my new girlfriend. he turned gay over the weekend watching the spain match and was proclaiming how shuai torres was/is. well that's my line okay. and too bad the poor boy's having tuition now. so wahaha. maybe i shall call him tonight to gloat in his face. evil me. and people still believe we actually are siblings. so what is he? kester gay? and i joanne sim? lol. ohwell.
im like aching all over and i dont even know why. i havent training for a while so it must be sitting cramped inthe car on the way to and fro from kl and getting pins and needles in my butt. yeesh.
and the countdown begins. 5 days to the first day of school. gosh i so dont wanna face syahidah. sorry but everyday she tells me how many more days to prelims and 'o's . like shut up already. im so behind time. rushing to catch up. but i guess that's the was we softballers are. too used to working under short deadlines that when we have a whole lot of time in our hands we just waste it away.
then theres those days where you feel you're the only one in this whole wide world that's feeling so down and everyone else is to happy and hyper. it aint fair that you're so sad but you just are and you dont know what's bothering you and there's nothing that will lift your spirits and everythings going the wrong direction, and then you wish someone out there would just come and be that shining star that you so desperately need to cling on but when that person doesnt come you just push it away to the back of your head until one day all these pushed back stuff just come tumbling out like mt merapi erupting.
maybe you dont feel this way and maybe its just me but i quote: 'where'd you go? i miss you so'
only thing is, i dont even know who im looking for.
but i trust God that He's my Jehovah Jirah. my provider :D